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emak dan bapa!

2011-03-17T00:42:00.006+08:00

A man came and said, "O Messenger of Allah, who among people most deserves my good companionship?"

He said: ‘Your mother.’

He said, ‘Then who?’

He said: ‘your mother.’

He said, ‘Then who?’

He said ‘Your mother.’

He said, ‘Then who?’,

He said: ‘Then your father.’

Read those words hunnay, "most deserving of my good companionship". Doesn't she deserve it? She does. My good companionship, what does that mean? It means being sweet and kind to her, help her, talk to her when she looks upset (make sure you say the right things though because if you don't.. heeh). After this, we'll be leaving for university or college and we'll live with new flat mates, maybe for 4 to 6 years, probably forming strong bonds with our new friends. Yet, i've lived with my parents for almost 17 YEARS. It is kind of absurd to think about it. It really is, when we look back, it seems pretty 'normal', but just imagine if you were to live with a group of people for 17 YEARS, wouldnt you guys be tight like the jeans you bought two years ago heh. I probably spent most part my youth just being a heck of a horrible child to them. Countless of times, i've been ignorant to them, why did i do that? For what ultimate purpose? I remember just doing it for no absolute reason other than to just annoy them and to let go of my frustrations -.- Which is ironic because, didn't it just cause frustration?

OAllah, let us always give our good companionship to our parents. AMEEN.

anyway. id like to thank the blogger.com peeps, lol i love spell check. heh

its 2011. wow.

2011-03-16T23:00:00.005+08:00

decided to write a new post, havent done it in quite awhile, you can guess :) i read back all my posts, well atleast most of it, and realized most of it was garbage. pure sedih-emosi-tergugat stuff mixed with wierdly ecstatic bull. I realized that i was so full of myself. i mean. really really full of myself. really really really really really really full of myself.

hmmmmmmmmm

o Allah, always make me free from ignorance and always make me concious of Your Grace and Your Ilmu and Your Almightiness Enthroned and The Coming of the Day of Judgement and O Allah, make me someone who will always work, ibadah and strive for good deeds to achieve Your Mercy in the hereafter, ameen.

If i were to read what i wrote from someone else's website, i would probably click the 'X' button or just change the link. Somehow, i did like all my 'emotionally bermasalah' posts, cos it didnt have much garbage in them. heh, i deleted all the rest, i think i didnt bother to delete the old posts in the first place because i was 'holding on' to my 'old' self. Now, there's only 14 left out of 60( 64, or is it 67?) posts, delete spreee, heehe. dont think im holding on so tightly now, though im not sure if i should keep all 14 of it, i wouldnt mind deleting ALL. HEHEH. anyway, next week we have exams, and i just spent roughly three hours + wasting time on the internet and tv._.

and still alhamdulillah, things are going well, i am able to study and i should go do it NAAAAOOO!. hehe, semangat la, isnt ilmu amazing, we should always fight for it, search for it, and look out for it. I mean ilmu yang bermanfaat lah bukan yang tak berpatutan dan yang merosakkan akal minda. i should do karangan now or smthg, neeh and i just spent almost 3 1/2 hours wasting time, plus, i should take my own advice -.- bye

breath

2009-06-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

don't you love those moments with a friend and you have silent moments but its not awkward. no, its not. its a peaceful silence, as if you can just look at that person in the eye and somehow you understand. you wont need words to elaborate & just watch and see. see that person, whoever it is maybe it's your mother, a relative, a best friend, a friend and maybe a stranger. just to look in their eyes and understand. i rarely have those moments but when it does happens, i cant stop smiling, because i know that i will have that someone in my life and i appreciate God for giving me such BLESSSS

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These past few days i feel like a time bomb. i could blow up any moment now. TICK tick. the time runs. i wonder when will that be. i rest my case.

as to those i didn't acknowledge as much, i'm sorry. as to that, i wish i could light up a bit at the time being but i'm just a bit tensed up ever since school started. i rasa pusing bangeeettttt!

i'll take a deep breath, say my alhamdulillah's &

peace yall :)

complications

2009-04-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

newblogg, experimenting now. ELLO, and nite.

;)